Friday, July 2, 2010

No longer fit for human interaction.

That's right, the bar exam has ruined my ability to hang out with people. I'm snarky and irritable, and that's on a good day. On a bad day, well, let's just say you don't really want to know.
I realized this last night. I had my mock exam yesterday (pure hell), and I was talking about it at the movies with my friends, (My ONE night off from bar prep, thanks to the mock exam). I made mention of one of the problems that I'd had trouble with, sort of blowing off the subject matter, and my best friend says something like "well the exam is only 4 weeks away now," implying that I really needed to learn that stuff. (Okay fine, maybe she wasn't meaning to imply it, but that's the way I took it.) It took pretty much everything I had NOT to tell her that I'd like to see her do it. Fine, you cram basic (applicable) knowledge of 22 subjects of law into you head, all of which have a million different subparts, and none of which you know for sure will be on the exam. Then come back and talk to me.
Now, she's a smart girl, way smarter than me, and I'm sure she could totally do it, but in no way did she deserve even my snarky thoughts. It's probably for the best that I didn't voice them, as I'm sure she would have told me to F off... and that frankly, I'm the one that made my bed... i've just got to suck it up and deal. And I know this, but please, I don't need to be reminded I need to learn the law.
But after that I realized, I'm not really fit for human interaction, so unless you're my husband (and I see you because I live with you), or in my bar prep class, I probably won't see you til after the bar. No offense, but it's probably for the better. I'm starting to think that the best way to maintain my non-law friendships is to just disappear until this whole mess is over.